Friday, July 18, 2014

Stressed and Confused

My, my, some time has gone by. A lot is going on around here since my last post. I won't write about all, mainly because it would take too much time. Time, or really, free time is a rarity around here lately. I am not surprised by this. After all, I have a 3.5 yr old and a 16 month old, but man, I really am in need of a break.

I know, I know..."Didn't you say last time you were going to Disney World?"

Yes. We did that, and that does not count as a break or a vacation in any sense. Please don't think of me as ungrateful, I do very much respect the money that went into that trip, and I am honored by all the planning and organizing that went into it, but it just wasn't the nice, relaxing vacation I wanted...or what my kids needed. It was hot, humid, crowded, too scheduled, and we didn't even get to see Chris for half the stay in Orlando. Not to mention we spent more days on the road to and from than were actually spent at Disney World.
I returned home more exhausted than when we left, and I still felt that intense urge for a family road trip to a fun, cooler place to "kick back" for several days. I sat on the idea for about a week until my supportive and understanding husband told me to go and book a stay in Colorado for later this year. Sure, I'll have to wait for fall, but it will AMAZING. I am so looking forward to it.

So that's the future, back to my current life.

I will pause here a moment and warn any non-parent on what you are about to read. You don't need to read the rest of this post, no really, I am saving you here, take this opportunity and run. Sure, if you are going to be a parent, read on, it's important you know what lies in your future, but beware...it gets real. Fast.

Lorelai's new thing is to refuse to poop.
That's right. Apparently you can do that, and you can do that for days on end. And shockingly, she's not alone. The internet has been very reassuring with this odd issue. A LOT of kids do this, and they do this for months at a time?! Sure, you have to actually administer medication in a certain location after 5-6 days to get that stuff out, but the kids keep up that craziness for a long time. I guess my kid is now apart of that. *sigh* Potty training her has been awful. She is great with #1, but terrible with #2. We are going on about a year soon. In the past 3 weeks, Lorelai has taken it to a new level.
We backed off on the whole "you have to use the potty for poop too" talks and just decided to let her do her thing on her own time. (The trip to FL also was a factor.) But then, instead of her inching closer to using the toilet, she started this "hold it until mommy forces medication on you" bit. At first I thought she was just constipated, but it is clear now she is doing this voluntarily. I don't get it. I have read many articles, and yet, I still don't get it. Regardless of her motives, she is still refusing to poop.
Has anyone else had this issue? I very much hate that I have to wait almost a week then give her a suppository so nothing becomes impacted. She cries, I feel horrible. I don't know what changed, I don't know what I can do to make her stop. I just know that this kid has blown my mind in ways I never could have imagined...and this one is not good.

I can't describe the odd stress this is bringing to my life, but I can feel it. It's a pit in my stomach, an anxiousness in my chest, I even pray about it before I go to sleep then find myself dreaming about it.I just want my precious girl to be healthy and happy. I wish I could eliminate this, what feels like a ridiculous,  problem from our lives.

It has been 3 weeks of this, and I am so ready for it to be over. Monday I will make a call to her pediatrician and hope they have something to offer me that will help. For now, we wait.

Sorry for the TMI.


M.LEWIS

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